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Mental health, happiness, depression, stress etc are some topics I deeply care. A few years back I went into deep deep states of feeling worthlessness, depression or whatever you say it. No one around me can even notice that I feel sad because I was an expert at hiding it. I would want to reach out to someone but found it difficult to talk sadness. Media and world around is conditioned to speak about travels, exiting adventures, promotions at work and all sorts of happy things. It was difficult to speak about my feelings to anyone because it was just emotion. When I would express I would be asked why are you sad? Come lets go out for lunch you will feel better etc. Deep down I knew going out for lunch etc won't work but I would still go since I didn't want to upset the other person. They would ask why are you sad? I would mentally think, had I known the answer I would have felt better, you asking me is not helping at all. Contemplating, thinking, trying various things what work

Have we ever questioned the present moment and stuck there? Let me share an incident: I had to take my sister to railway station/airport. But missed the airport bus and cab drivers cancelled. Got frustrated and helpless and panicked. Then we did miss the flight. You know I keep complaining oh why didn't we wake up early? Why didn't we prebook the cab and so on. But after few minutes I thought ok now I cannot do get back the past moment. I got a whole another day to spend with my sister. that's it. We both walked back with our suitcase and enjoyed the rest of the day.Booked the flight after 2 days and then life moved on. You see, what happened? It happens everyday right. You get stuck in traffic and question oh why didn't I leave early or why didn't I take the other route. You get in conflict with someone, you question why did I say that, You miss a deadline in office work, you question, oh why did I go for that birthday party? why did I watch that Netflix show/ What

A great speech written by my sister Niharika! I can relate to every word she wrote. We both have spectacles and have seen baba work relentlessly all his life to give the best to both us. I am extremely grateful to baba and my sister and my mother, my whole family! Forever grateful :) Below is the most wonderful paragraph with so many emotions in a few words.  Hello! I am Niharika Pal and I love to travel. Plain and simple. I aspire to travel the world and maybe someday get on board with Spacex and take that tour to mars as well! But today I am not going to describe any exotic destination but rather dive into my childhood and relive the ways I have travelled and what they meant to me. When I was little, my favorite time of the year was during the summer holidays where Ma Baba Didi and I would make our yearly trip to visit my grandparents in Kolkata. There was this thrill in playing dress-up with Didi, while selecting clothes to pack, helping Ma in cooking snacks for the journey and then

When earth shakes disaster happens. Once in a while nature shakes, but your senses are shaken everyday. When senses are shaky, it disturbs the peace within. Meditation can happen when there is harmony in senses or when senses are steady or when Prana is smooth. When are senses shaky?  When senses think more pleasure comes from object they shake. Shaky senses make us tired. The same eyes which brings you light, brings you temptations.  The same is true with ears. If we keep tuning radio channels not listening to a single song we are confused. The same is true with smell. If we keep smelling multiple perfumes we are confused. In short, when senses are steady, prana becomes steady and then meditation happens.

This is a book by Jill Taylor. Karthik who is from my meditating group, recommended us this book in one of our knowledge sessions where we talk about life and beyond. I knew outright that this could be a book with a lot of insight. Jill a neuroanatomist gets a major stroke and loses a lot of her left brain. Left brain is all about the to-do list. We use left brain to work, day-to-day activities, speak, read etc. Now you may wonder what does right brain even do? Didn't left brain cover everything? So, Jill with her left hemisphere flooded in blood what do you think her capabilities were after the stroke? And she says "To the right mind, no time exists other than the present moment, and each moment is vibrant with sensation. Life or death occurs in the present moment. The experience of joy happens in the present moment. Our perception and experience of connection with something that is greater than ourselves occurs in the present moment. To our right mind, the moment of now is

Dumbfounded I sit thinking how little I know about the world. The experiences people have/had. How much deep the suffering can really be. I thought I have the deepest scar in my life suffering alone but here this lady has gone through things which stands way beyond my wildest imagination. Everything she wrote in this book felt like a fiction. I could hardly believe it is a memoir. I have heard/seen kids not going to schools because of various reasons. Staying home doing all odd jobs to help get food on the table. But life is still normal. As a kid, go help your father/mother at the construction site or farm to cultivate crops get some extra daily wage for the family for food on table or actually floor. But never did a thought cross mind what goes on in families like these when one of the parents is a bipolar/schizophrenic. It is super hard. A kid not going to school and growing up listening to the random imaginations of a schizophrenic paranoid patient, is almost like living in a cage.

Very random thought that came during shower...  When we come from the space of "I belong to you" everything comes out of love. No hatred, no jealousy,  no enmity. It is like take someone you love, your father, mother, siblings or spouse or anyone whom you love dearly. Would you feel jealous with them? No, you will oneness with them. It is like you feel you belong to them!  I wonder if we consciously apply "I belong to you" to everyone and everything all negative will vanish and we will just be left with love... lots of love😍 Love you all guys😍😍😍

In my opinion, I think soul is to experience. That is why it lies on the top of all levels of existence namely Body, Breath, Mind, Intellect, Memory, Ego and Self. I don't think we can really define what is soul or self. We can may be use intellect, memory or mind to attempt defining soul but we could still miss out and not complete the definition. The way i try to see is, it is all one conscious. One conscious that has all creation, universe and everything. We start Art of Living courses with "I belong to you" over time i am realizing it is a very profound statement. It is saying everything is just one. You feel no barriers no walls. You feel sad/happy = I feel sad/happy. At that level we might feel others emotions as our own because we are all one. All just one conscious. Self is above ego or identity. When we touch that level of soul there is just no difference between anything. You are everything or you are nothing just doesn't matter.  As a kid I was told god is