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Finally finished binge watching a beautiful political satire HBO series: "Veep". So, this is me, I avoid binge-watching. This is like getting into the trap of watching non-stop for 2-3 days. I get so into it that I become unaware of what is going on around me. This was my first series about politics. I am someone who would be miles away from the discussion about politics. Bores me to death! But this series caught my eye. Really good for someone like that. Too good comedy, perfect exaggerated acting, and all the "fuck ups" as Selena, the Veep says after most of her fuck-ups. Mike Mclintock, the PR person, I liked him rather competing with Sue for the number of steps in his Fitbit than a polished talk show host on TV. It is funny how I like Dan Egan running around finding insights or pushed out after he did his job. Dan's character I think lost its texture from season 4. Emy Brookheimer, oh I love her. The workholic like me except that I am definitely a little ...

On a gloomy Saturday here in Seattle, I pulled myself out of the bed and took a shared ride to a community work party at Beacon Hill. So I went to volunteer for Beacon Food Forest . I was happy finally reaching the destination and finding people around. So, yes this is my first - work party, gardening, community experience, non-Indian -- I was the only (actually 2 :P) Indian in a group of 100 (a real first). So yes thrilled to have come here. What did I do? Actively listened to basic dos and don'ts, 10 different team leaders and the projects they will lead us to. There was weeding, wall-building, workshop, medicinal plants etc. I chose the workshop. It was a environmental studies kind of classes out in garden. Studied many plants. Looked at an apple guild for the first time. A guild is a food forest with trees of different heights. eg: Apple at center, shrubs, strawberries etc. Then asked to identify and remove weeds from actually planted trees. Again some more listening alrea...

Probably one of the worst books I have read over time. I don't recommend it to anyone. Thankfully it was a short book of 250 pages around. I couldn't bear more anyway. It was published in July 1991 and I am reading it in December 2017 during my Masters in United States. I believe many things have changed since then. The pun and jokes comparing American life and Indian life have become commonplace. They didn't give me those laughs where it was intended. Also, really hated the English of Gopal. I know that poor Indian english was intentional but I didn't like reading it. It made reading little slow. These days, I don't think anyone talks in such poor english anyway. It is a

Nothing can be more satisfying than scraping through an assignment and finishing it before the deadline. So, this time it was using tensorflow and train MNSIT. MNSIT is a dataset which gives digits, 0,1,2,3,4,5,6,7,8,9. It is a classification problem in short. I always wanted to try tensorflow and finally here I am. As a person, most important thing while doing any task is having motivation to do it. I think it comes before interest. You do a lot of tasks without interest but finish it. Sometimes, you are interested but lack motivation and sometimes you are not very interested though you like to do your task. In this semester I had ample time to try different tasks. I am super interested in Vision topics and TensorFlow etc but somehow it took a backseat at this point in time. Time to gear up girl. Final exam is within a week. Cheers to my Computer Vision assignment. MNIST dataset

Trying something new is always me. But this first was jittery. I panic, feel dreadfully sad, anxiety attacks, mood swings so on. This has been on and off for quite sometime. It is little difficult to pinpoint exactly when it started. But I guess 4-5 years now when I started recognizing it. I remember spending endless hours in Samsung browsing through websites measuring my anxiety, searching for a reason behind it, searching online counselors or some android application with free counselors. Firstly seeking a counselor itself felt dreadful. To top it I can't go and meet someone, online gave a mid-ground for me. Browsed blogs, read real-experiences. When I got sane, I searched for ways to cope up when stuck. Today is the first time I actually spoke to a real counselor, a physical person. Oh, don't worry I am perfectly fine. No attacks nothing. Just that when I was returning from Dr. Fushen Wang's lab, I saw people from CAPS sitting in Chapin Commons. I hadn't thought a...

Nothing beats dance for me. Form of dance doesn't matter. Hip-hop, Salsa, Classical, Bollywood, Bhangra, Garba, Dandiya, I am up and smiling till my ears :P. I may not be good at dancing but I enjoy dancing. I might look awkward or even laughable in few moves but I don't care. I love to learn. I love to improve.  Today was Salsa's turn. Basic steps. Loved it. My calf muscles and abs had good time pumping blood. :D Happiness is dancing. Always. Always. PS. I prefer always over forever. Picked up from "Fault in our Stars". My all-time favorite book and movie.

Melancholic, having mood swings every now and then. Why am I like this? Why is it that I get super excited sometimes and super depressed at times? There are times when I can think clearly. I can remember everything crystal clear. Sometimes even I get surprised how could I recollect that. And then there are days when I want to punish myself. I feel extremely sad depressed. My memory is at its worst. I just forget basic stuff like my student ID which I use it on a daily basis. Damn me. I wish I could be normal everyday. I know I am getting those mood swings again. Sometimes it is huge while sometimes it is mild. It feels like a lump of emotion accumulated at my heart or inside my body can't say exactly Then, I want it out. Sometimes it is easy when I cry it out or shout out or workout at my hardest. At times it is sooo difficult. It is like that vomiting sensation where you want to vomit but it doesn't come out. Feels uneasy the whole time till it comes out. I know I should fe...